The Beginning

I know, it seems nuts. But I have thoughts running through my head all of the time, and I just can't seem to keep them out! This might be a stream of consciousness, so beware.

I was inspired today by a blog post at Cjane. It was beautiful. And it embodied so many of the thoughts that I have in my head. I have believed this kind of thinking for a long time, and was able to embrace it at a young age.

I am Big/Tall.

My entire life, I have been 6'2" tall. Okay, not for my entire life, but since I was 15. And honestly, for my entire life, I have been larger than my group of friends. I have never fit into the standard mold. Even at my smallest as a teenager, I wore a size 12, and I was SKINNY! But because of my body size, I could not fit into anything smaller. When I got married, I wore a size 16 dress, and I looked HOT BABY. But most people would have never guessed that was a size 16. I am definitely not that size now. For sure. I never felt pressure to "fit the mold" because I was never going to. Ever. I was 6'2". I was always going to feel "larger" than my friends and so, I was okay with it. I always have been. I have never felt the pressure some people do to look a certain way, or be a certain size. I am grateful for that. I hope I can teach it to my girls, but in this world, there are so many images that are different. That set some kind of expectation.

I like to cook.

But not only do I like to cook. I love feeding my family. I love knowing that what I made them for dinner not only filled their tummy's, but NOURISHED them. It is important to me. I have not gone all "organic" but I have tried to make improvements and adjustments to help them along the way. I have even gone so far as to pureeing veggies and legumes into their food. However, I found it time consuming and not always fun. But I do think it is a great way to sneak in Veggies if you don't get enough. Not long ago on my other blog, I tried to express how it feels when I get to feed someone. I love it. I love food. I love cooking it, making it, baking it and eating it. I wouldn't say that my love of food is unhealthy, but I would say that baking is my form of stress relief, and consequently, when I am stressed out, my body shows it.

I have a child with Autism.

In the world of Autism, there are people who are very concerned with nutrition. I am too. Many of them are more dedicated that I am at feeding their families good food, and worry much about chemicals, and processes and all sorts of things that quite frankly could make me build a greenhouse and shack up for the rest of my life in there. I have to be careful when I absorb that kind of info because sometimes it can be alarmist. And although I think it is VERY important, I also have to find a way to work it into my life for ME.

I would like to loose some of that stress weight.

I have been reading another blog call Ground Hogs Day with Celia Fae for at least 5 years now. I think. I have watched her on her blog as pounds have just melted off her body. It is completely inspiring. COMPLETELY. She has pretty much turned vegetarian. Something I don't think I could EVER do. Not completely anyway. And not something I really WANT to do. However, I am completely intrigued by her claims of loving it and feeling so "healthy" and my total reliance upon protein to satiate my hunger when I am watching what I eat. I decided to do it the other day. I had a green smoothie for breakfast and one whole wheat oatmeal pancake. I had a salad for lunch, packed with veggies (no protein- except for a few nuts) and you know what? I was fine. TOTALLY FINE. And you want to know the OTHER crazy thing? I wasn't hungry. AND, when I went out to the garage at 9 at night to get some milk from the spare, I saw my Diet Dr. Peppers sitting there and it occurred to me that I didn't have ONE. NOT ONE. And I didn't even think about it NOR did I ever have a craving for one, or a headache. I was stunned.

So, this is my new spot. I hope you will join me, because I would really like this to be interactive. I would love to know what you do, and how you do it, and what you like. I already have about 5 posts lined up in my head, and I can't wait to share them with you.

Join me, will you?